I am yours; save me,
for I have sought your precepts.
Psalm 119:94 (ESV)
By Jodi Matthews
What is faith anyway? Some might think that this is a blind leap into the unknown, but for me, faith has meant more than just that. Faith has come more and more as I have read His word, seen Him work through others and my own life in the midst of the ebb and flow of daily living out what I know He has asked of me. Loving Him, loving others, submitting to God, humbling my heart, and even when I don’t measure up, the Good news is He gives more Grace. (James 4:6) As my relationship with Jesus has grown over these many years, I have learned that with every passing day there is a new opportunity for faith, new faith, new capacity, new places, new edges God continues to call me to.
This is me, just Jodi, sharing my heart for my dear Jesus and what the Call to my edge has looked like over the past many years of ministry at Urban Vision in Akron, Ohio. This has been and will continue to be a faith journey for all of us as we continue to walk ever closer to our Lord, clinging to His loving unchanging Hand.
Stepping out of my comfort zone surrendering my fears and my “idols” (like idols of acceptance) has never been easy. In fact, writing this blog is a huge step of faith, but my prayer is that what I share with you will spill over from my love and time that I have with Jesus. The nearness of God is my good, it is your good….how could we settle for anything less?
Psalm 73:28 (NASB)
But as for me, the nearness of God is my good;
I have made the Lord God my refuge,
That I may tell of all Your works.
Over 25 years ago my dad asked me a question that at the time I was just starting to embrace a life of faith in living and loving amongst an urban community of need. I honestly didn’t know how to respond in the moment. I had just told my dad that God called me to move to the inner-city to love and share my faith in a culture different from my own. I had a lot to learn, and let me emphasize a lot!!! Yet, I knew that if I did not answer God’s call I would miss something of great importance that God wanted to teach me, something He desired for me to see. My dad asked only one question to me, his only daughter, “Jodi, why is it that you always feel you must live life on the edge?”
So this blog is a time I want to unpack that question as God began to reveal the answer one step of faith at a time. I would like to take you with me on my own personal journey that I pray will help us discover what awaits us all as we are obedient to follow God to the edges in our lives. Will you go with me? I hope that this will be a time where I can be vulnerable and share my struggles my hopes and dreams that I pray would inspire all of us to walk to the edges God has for you.
I was feeling a little down when I had to let go of some things like starting back to school again to get my Masters. It just wasn’t going to happen this year once again. I thought, “I am never going to get that education and no one will ever hear my voice.” God took me to a passage in Acts 4 when Peter and John spoke with authority the Word of God to the Sanhedrin about Jesus, “‘…that there is no other name given among men by which we must be saved.’ People were astounded by these two uneducated fishermen who spoke with such authority the Word of God.
When they saw the courage of Peter and John and realized that they were unschooled, ordinary men, they were astonished and they took note that these men had been with Jesus.” (Acts 4:13)
This is me – just Jodi. I may not have a lot of fancy degrees but what I pray people see from my life is that this girl has spent some time with Jesus! May that be evident in all our lives. May people know us as people who genuinely unreservedly love Jesus and have met with Him in His presence! Praise His sweet name Jesus.
So I say……Lord, I am yours. Save me!
Lord, I am yours. Help me.
Lord, I am yours. Cleanse me.
Lord, I am yours. Fill me.
Lord, I am yours. Use me.
Lord, I am yours. Take me.
Lord, I am yours. Show me.
Lord, I am yours. Save me!