Overlooked

By Jodi Matthews

Have you ever felt overlooked?  Maybe it is at your job when you feel like you’re putting in extra time and effort which everyone is benefitting from but no one acknowledges your hard work. Or possibly within your family when all the time and sacrifice of getting groceries, cooking meals, doing laundry, and mowing lawns goes unnoticed and underappreciated. It feels great to be seen or heard or noticed by others. It makes us discouraged and depressed when we are not.  I know we should do things with right hearts and motives even when we aren’t noticed, but let’s face it being overlooked is not an easy thing to handle day in and day out.  

 

We all want to matter to someone and hope that our effort in life makes a difference in our sphere of influence. In our world today we are always wanting the unique look that unique gift that says this is me or from me?  This adjective “unique” is defined as being the only one of its kind unlike anything else.  One of my deepest desires in my heart has been not to be overlooked especially by God.  I am learning to find my worth in Christ and rest in His thoughts of me alone.  When I was a little girl I had such a desire to please God but I often felt that I had no special talent to make me stand out in the crowd.  Thankfully mom and dad loved me, yet in the world sometimes others were not always too kind to a little girl who wore thick glasses and didn’t seem to have much talent to offer.  Even though I worked hard and tried hard in all those categories of sports, academics and music it just never was enough to make me feel unique or one of a kind.  I still have that desire to please God, but my focus has started to change off of me and onto the who sees Me best.

 

However, one thing I did love to do that was special was to sing with my dad alongside his rich voice as we would perform a little duet in our small church service.  The song we often would sing together (my Grandpa’s favorite) was called He Touched Me by the Gaithers.  There was something about singing that song with my dad knowing my Grandpa loved to hear us both, made my heart soar!

 

Shackled by life’s heavy burdens

Neath the load of guilt and shame

Then the hand of Jesus touched me

And now I am no longer the same

He touched me oh he touched me

And all the joy that floods my soul

Something happened and now I know he touched me and made me whole…..

I will never forget that I had the most unusual dream that I still remember to this day.  I happened to be standing in a very large crowd of people that went as far as the eye could see.  This crowd seemed to be turned in one direction facing toward what seemed to be a throne.  I assumed that this throne must be Gods throne and that somehow I was in this great crowd of people waiting and looking for Jesus.  In that moment, I thought, “there is no way Jesus will know that I am here. No way will I ever be seen by him!”  Yet no sooner did I have that thought, still in the Magnanimous crowd, still facing toward the throne, it was then I felt a touch on my shoulder, and I knew it was Jesus.  I did not see him, but I knew it was His touch!  It was like God saying to me,” Jodi you may feel lost and unseen in this crowd, but I know exactly where you are and see you fully and completely.”  Jesus in His word often reminds us in Matthew 28:20,” I am with you even until the end of the age!”  Also in Hebrews 13:5 God reminds us that He will never leave you or forsake you…  I find great comfort knowing that Lord of this Universe sees me, cares for me, guides me, keeps me and so therefore I am…You are His unique child loved and cherished not just another face in the crowd.  How God can do that with all of us is a mystery, but He is God the God of the impossible!  How about you?  Do you need to be reminded that you are not overlooked today?

 

For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him.  11 Chronicles 16:9

Hear my heart from a recent journal entry of mine…..

 

Overlooked by Jodi Matthews

Oh God the struggle, the pain, the running, the tears. I feel overlooked

Others seem to pass on by with ease of stride with no fears…… but I feel overlooked.

My voice feels muffled in the crowd, trying harder to shout out loud… but I feel overlooked.

Keep working, keep crying, keep loving, keep breathing….yes I feel overlooked.

Yet in my heart I share this sacred space with you Oh Lord. A place where no one else has seen just you and me in sweet commune…….I feel seen!

Where work feels lighter, my burdens are lifted not by anyone around but by the one who sees me  as Someone made for His view alone….I feel seen!

My sin like jealousy comes when I look to others for my worth instead of the One who calls me His treasure a work of Art…..I feel seen!

No promotions or platforms, just a quiet place to be beyond the clamor where I see Him and He sees Me!

Yes, I feel overlooked yet I know I am seen by the One who loves me, made me, and says, “My child I see you, keep seeing Me!”

 

You have said,” Seek my face.”  My heart says to you,” Your face Lord, do I seek.” Psalms 27:8

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